Dear Dr Agarwal – psychiatrist at Norwich Rollesby Ward, Hellesdon Hospital.
“The NHS is underfunded“ was the comment a staff member made following a “Self Harm” course he had attended after he explained the course was more about shame and guilt than its consequences (hospitalisation).
Shame you were off that day, as I feel you would have benefitted from this course.
The NHS is underfunded because money isn’t spent wisely when it comes to Mental Health.
Yesterday, I read the reports that should have been given to me in good time prior to the Hospital Managers Meeting I was due to attend today – they were only given to me less than 24 hours prior – and they made interesting reading.
Not only a few (!!) facts were factually incorrect, others only one version of events, and listing all the medication I had been given plus my stay in LSE (Low Sensory Environment) was frankly laughable!
Enough to convince me I am correct in believing We – the Royal We – ought to concentrate more on psychology than psychiatry.
It wasn’t long ago your profession decided lobotomy was the answer – remember? Shameful all the more. [I have since been told by a staff member lobotomies are on the up again.]
The worst was you felt I should be sectioned for as long as possible [six months] – shameful again.
Who do you think you are to make such decisions?
I am tired of you people (psychiatrists) you really have no clue what kind of person I am – No Clue.
Treat people’s emotion problems instead of medicating them and you see vast improvements.
Then we can see just how underfunded the NHS really is when it comes to Mental Health.
I had written this letter to Dr Agarwal however, my hearing got postponed and I found myself transferred to PICU (Psychiatric Intensive Care Unit) in Ipswich before I got a chance to finish the letter and give it to him.
[I only stayed in PICU Ipswich 48 hours as they didn’t know why I was sent them and got moved to the Poppy Open Ward in Ipswich still where Dr Jenkins and Dr McCormack were in charge of me. The contents still valid, I thought I would carry on the letter and add a worry I then had with the care provided by those two doctors.]
I now have an extra worry: my income.
I am a home owner see and have been most of my working life.
Currently I own a house in Thetford and I need an income to pay for it: my job.
Work is kindly paying me whilst I have been sectioned for at least six months but since I was sectioned first in July, and we are now November, the six months is soon to expire.
Back in Hellesdon, Norwich, I agreed to take medication so I could be discharged. I even agreed to take the Depot injection to prove I was serious.
Weeks later, I find myself still sectioned. Why? Apparently because you don’t trust me to carry on with the medication if I am discharged.
I don’t agree with long term medication but I need to go back to work. I want to go back to work.
Whilst you are debating whether I will carry on with medication, I have been busy making plans on my discharge follow-up with my care coordinator.
I will meet up with a psychologist, Ollie, to resolve some deep rooted issues I have (trust issues mainly), I have also decided to keep serious track of my sleep pattern (I usually sleep four to five hours a night and things go wrong when I consistently drop below three), I will see my GP (General Practitioner) to be prescribed sleeping tablets for occasional use if/when my sleep pattern drops below three hour.
I will take regular retreats away from the Internet (I have an Internet addiction).
I have already spoken to work about what my return to work will look like (phased return, handling the knowledgebase and customer surveys as I am a Service Desk Analyst and this something I enjoy doing).
All I need now is to be discharged, preferably before my work sick pay runs out.
What do you need from me?