Letter to a psychiatrist

Dear Dr Agarwalpsychiatrist at Norwich Rollesby Ward, Hellesdon Hospital.

The NHS is underfunded was the comment a staff member made following a “Self Harm” course he had attended after he explained the course was more about shame and guilt than its consequences (hospitalisation).

Shame you were off that day, as I feel you would have benefitted from this course.

The NHS is underfunded because money isn’t spent wisely when it comes to Mental Health.

Yesterday, I read the reports that should have been given to me in good time prior to the Hospital Managers Meeting I was due to attend today – they were only given to me  less than 24 hours prior – and they made interesting reading.

Not only a few (!!) facts were factually incorrect, others only one version of events, and listing all the medication I had been given plus my stay in LSE (Low Sensory Environment) was frankly laughable!

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Enough to convince me I am correct in believing We – the Royal We – ought to concentrate more on psychology than psychiatry.

It wasn’t long ago your profession decided lobotomy was the answer – remember? Shameful all the more. [I have since been told by a staff member lobotomies are on the up again.]

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The worst was you felt I should be sectioned for as long as possible [six months] – shameful again.

Who do you think you are to make such decisions?

I am tired of you people (psychiatrists) you really have no clue what kind of person I amNo Clue.

Treat people’s emotion problems instead of medicating them and you see vast improvements.

Then we can see just how underfunded the NHS really is when it comes to Mental Health.


I had written this letter to Dr Agarwal however, my hearing got postponed and I found myself transferred to PICU (Psychiatric Intensive Care Unit) in Ipswich before I got a chance to finish the letter and give it to him.

[I only stayed in PICU Ipswich 48 hours as they didn’t know why I was sent them and got moved to the Poppy Open Ward in Ipswich still where Dr Jenkins and Dr McCormack were in charge of me. The contents still valid, I thought I would carry on the letter and add a worry I then had with the care provided by those two doctors.]

I now have an extra worry: my income.

I am a home owner see and have been most of my working life.

Currently I own a house in Thetford and I need an income to pay for it: my job.

Work is kindly paying me whilst I have been sectioned for at least six months but since I was sectioned first in July, and we are now November, the six months is soon to expire.

Back in Hellesdon, Norwich, I agreed to take medication so I could be discharged. I even agreed to take the Depot injection to prove I was serious.

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Weeks later, I find myself still sectioned. Why? Apparently because you don’t trust me to carry on with the medication if I am discharged.

I don’t agree with long term medication but I need to go back to work. I want to go back to work.

Whilst you are debating whether I will carry on with medication, I have been busy making plans on my discharge follow-up with my care coordinator.

I will meet up with a psychologist, Ollie, to resolve some deep rooted issues I have (trust issues mainly), I have also decided to keep serious track of my sleep pattern (I usually sleep four to five hours a night and things go wrong when I consistently drop below three), I will see my GP (General Practitioner) to be prescribed sleeping tablets for occasional use if/when my sleep pattern drops below three hour.

I will take regular retreats away from the Internet (I have an Internet addiction).

I have already spoken to work about what my return to work will look like (phased return, handling the knowledgebase and customer surveys as I am a Service Desk Analyst and this something I enjoy doing).

All I need now is to be discharged, preferably before my work sick pay runs out.

What do you need from me?

Pascale

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